FRAGMENTS

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Dreamscape III/XI:
As I climb the mountain of Envitrea, goddess of cold and heartbreak and resolve, I recall the events which led to the break-up with my first boyfriend, Barrett, as well as the aftermath.

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released December 23, 2015

The Silent Boy is Azrael Belford

Guest Vocals: Amber Belford (as the goddess Envitrea)

Artwork adapted from pieces by Timothy D. Nielsen
His art can be found at illumn8u.com

I'd like to thank my mother for being there for me when all of this went down. And thank you, Brian DeFlyer, for finally getting Barrett to leave me alone. I don't think I could've moved on from him or made this album without your help.

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Azrael Belford Buffalo, New York

I began making music in 2009. In 2010, I released my debut album as The Silent Boy. In 2011 I began my instrumental project Stars & Constellations and released its 1st album that December. I have a project called AQVARIVS that's on a hiatus until 2024. I started a dance project in 2016 called Kaleidanoyse. Currently working on the LP7 for The Silent Boy and Chapter VII for Stars & Constellations. ... more

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Track Name: SLUMBER
At the foot of Envitrea
I wish to forget
about you.
With my feet bare
in the snow,
I look for one slumber
to let go
of us.

Snow, snow falls around me,
cold and sharp.
Crystals melt
as they land upon my cheeks.

They remind me of your kisses,
so I wipe them off
and lift my dark hood.

A heavy weight inside
of me holds down
my soul.
Sleep is still
far from me;
I cannot rest
until I
am free
from you.
Track Name: ABANDON
Gelid air
flows around me,
bites at my figure,
brings me to my knees.
Tears
skid down
my face.

Back in that Summer,
you let me in,
proclaimed you loved
and cherished me.
Still you sent me back
to my home
deep below the earth
where there are no
hearths of warmth.

(Child, come to see;
Open your eyes.)

Back in that Summer,
you let me in,
proclaimed you loved
and cherished me.
Still you sent me back
to my home
deep below the earth
where there are no
hearths of warmth.

I pause
to look
ahead.
There is
a house
covered in ice...
Track Name: ICE
Up the marble stairs,
down the violet hall,
I hear echoes.
Don't you try
to call me back,
cold-hearted fool.

Why didn't you ever
let me in?
I was always blown away by
your dark wind.
How can you push me
away
like that?

Waters frozen o'er,
safety in the snow
upon the bed.
You will not
feel me again.

Why didn't you ever
let me in?
I was always blown away by
your dark wind.
How can you push me
away
like that?
When
did you become
so torn
apart?
You can never
have
me in
your heart,
you can never
have
me in
your heart,
anymore.
Track Name: DERELICT
Found
my way to
a broken place;
Cracks
in the tile.

An abandoned pod,
shattered glass
in this sanctuary,
lost in the past.
Just like my heart,
empty and cold.

Indigo light
bursts from the ice.

Your
heart was dead,
but still
you said
that
you loved me,
needed me,
oh, so much.
I did
believe that
until you changed.
I don't think
I can be unchained.

Elevator
upward,
icicles down.
Going in circles
around
in my mind.

A ladder
leads up into
light.

Your
heart was dead,
but still
you said
that
you loved me,
needed me,
oh, so much.
I did
believe that
until you changed.
I don't think
I can be unchained
from you.

But I need you gone,
out of my head,
before I go overboard,
with a soul
full of dread.

(Love,
you can handle this.
Lift up your head
because you aren't dead.
Follow my voice...)
Track Name: FALLEN
I hear
someone
calling to me.
Into a cavern,
after her
I go.

But I'm not able
to forget his touch.

So I fall
through the floor,
into the dark
I will sink
more and more.
When will I see
your face again?
I cannot move
away
from you.

I hit
the ground,
and I don't
feel anything now.
I'm numb and
cold.

Ice around me,
snow surrounding
me in this bed.
I'm back within
the Ice House.

So I leave
through the door.
The frost bites,
but I keep
treading on,
hoping to erase
my love inside
this space,
and be freed.
Track Name: UNDERTOW
Wind blows,
and beauty goes away.
I can't live
without you here.

Love is not easy to find.
Why can't you stay
out of my mind?

I'm caught
in the undertow,
caught in
the dark
and deep
abyss.

I'll climb to
the highest high
just to run away.

I'm caught
in the undertow,
caught in
the dark
and deep
abyss.

I'm caught
in the undertow,
caught in
the dark
and deep
abyss.
Track Name: STRANGER
We used to be
enough for each other.
But we were not
meant to be together.

So we let
them in,
and we thought
it wouldn't end
between us.

But it did,
it did.

And they took
you from me,
made it so
you could
not see.
A wall came up
between our hearts,
then you went to them
and I went alone.

My body filled
up with fear
at the idea of
you not here.
But still we let
them in,
and we thought
it would end
between us.

But it did,
oh, it did.

He wanted you
to himself,
and you wanted
me instead
until he took
hold of your
fears.

You thought I
would leave you behind.
But, I couldn't
even if I tried.

I cared for you
until I was gone.
Track Name: ASTRAY
We lied to each other
until we couldn't
anymore.

But this
wasn't love,
no matter what
we both say.

You were just
someone to keep me alive.
I was the same
to you.
We didn't want
to be alone
anymore.
So we hid in our room
and locked the door.

You threw me out
in the cold,
back to Hell,
the 9th Level.
Ice overgrew
on me
until I couldn't
see.

You were just
someone to keep me away
from my home that
I hate.
So was I to you.
Your family got
on your
last nerve.

I had nowhere
left to go,
still I was
kicked out
in the snow.

You threw me out
in the ice,
just because you
believed his lies.
So I'm going
back underground,
where I will not
sleep
safe and sound.
Track Name: OVERCAST
Tungsten clouds
overcast,
with my heart
in the past.
You locked me out
of your life,
so I'm filled
up with strife.

We were supposed to
last forever,
but we did not.
You were supposed to
stay by my side but
now
you're just gone,
forced me to be
on my own.

I called
you up,
wanting to hear
your voice.
But you don't
want me
when you have
a new lover.

We were supposed to
last forever,
but we did not.
You were supposed to
stay by my side but
now
you're just gone,
forced me to be
on my own.

So I crawl
back into my
bed,
wishing I truly would
drop dead
from all this remorse.
I've lost my course,
and can't live
without you here.

Tungsten clouds
overcast,
with my heart
in the past.
Track Name: SHADOW
There is no love
in my soul
for you
anymore.
I've seen
who you are,
under your
deep and dark scars.

You're not
the one for me;
this is what I finally see.

So stay away
from my
broken heart.
I won't let you
open up,
or have you
leave your mark
again,
again.

The Shadows
of you
try to pull
me back.
But I won't be won.
I won't be won.

So stay away
from my
healing heart.
Don't try to
steal my soul.
You will not
leave your mark
again,
again.

Now,
go away,
into the
darkest day.
Take your
heart
with you,
and leave me be.

I will never
be yours.
Track Name: RETRACE
Back and forth from
memories,
we truly wish
to be recast
in our roles
as loves,
but we're much
too
different.

We want to make
this work,
tried hard
to make it through,
but I won't
make it back
to you.

Too much has
happened,
with no love
in sight.
You have a new
love,
so cherish him.
Do not let go,
or get lost in
the cold.
Open your heart,
and move on from me.
Track Name: UNRAVEL
In my sight,
there's a new light.
The clouds are breaking
with the dawn,
as I reach the
peak of Envitrea's
mountain.

(Come to me,
little one,
fully grown.)

I run to the
sound,
to the mother I'm bound.
I stop at an arch,
and see through the stark.
Track Name: ENVITREA'S PEAK
(Finally
you found me.
A heart of ice
turned into
half-light.)

I had to be
rid of him.
I was spiraling down.
I couldn't see
a thing;
he was blocking
my Light.

But now I'm
free, oh.
Climbed through
the ice
and snow,
saw this through
in the cold.
(Now you can
love yourself as I love you.)
Even in the deepest
hell.

(So take
my gift of
always
finding your home.)

Now it's time
to go.
I must find
new seeds to
sow.
Track Name: AZRAEL
The skies
are cleared.
My heart feels
lighter than
ever before.

I may have
some regret
resting inside
of my chest.
But I'm moving on
and have gained
new sight.
It's time to
leap from the ledge
and float away.
It's time for
a new day.

My eyes light up.
Black wings sprout
from my back
and lift me up.

I may have
some regret
lingering,
but I'm
ready to go.
I'm ready to
fly away
from this place.

Light envelops,
so does Dark,
and I vanish
into stars.